#BestLentEver – Day 40. Black Saturday.

As we anticipate Jesus’ Resurrection, we now reflect on our Lenten journey. How has yours been? I have been blessed to journey with Dynamic Catholic on their program #BestLentEver. I have never been consistent in my writings and reflections and joining the program day-by-day throughout Lent had taught me a lot of things about myself and my faith. I have a lot to work on (I probably mentioned this multiple times throughout the season), however I know there are many more ways I can do to improve on myself–mainly to become a better-version-of-myself.

My life had been crazy busy with the ups-and-downs that life had thrown at me. It had been a hectic season of Lent both spiritually and physically. In all honestly, it had been difficult. There are times when I just did not have the time! I will find myself blogging in bathrooms, airplane, parks, buses, etc. It had been a great experience and I feel like the nudge from the Holy Spirit everyday had helped me get through it. Enough of my experience…

As we come tonight in Easter Vigil, we celebrate Jesus’ Resurrection and become witnesses of His great love for us. As I reflect on the reflection of the day, Matthew Kelly urges us to be present in the Gospel, most especially before, during, and after the Passion. If you were one of the disciples during His time, what would you have felt? Series of emotions and thoughts must have been whirling through their minds and it can get a little overwhelming. I can’t blame Peter for denying, Thomas for doubting, scared disciples for hiding… they all were acting rationally based on what they were feeling. Most of the time, we are the same. We act based on what we feel rather than what we know or believe.

Jesus, all powerful and loving, had helped us overcome this great mystery–mystery of our faith and his great revelation of His unconditional love for us. May we always be reminded, not just during Lent, to live and remember the Lord through His Passion.

I wish all of you a Happy Easter! Thanks for joining me on my journey of faith throughout this season of Lent.

Please continue to pray for me and pray for the world.

 

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#BestLentEver – Day 17. ERASER.

As I scramble to read all my accounting notes and finish practice questions for my exam tomorrow, I can’t help but keep looking at the solution pages. Am I ready for this test because I have the answers just a flip a way? Or am I really confident that I can do the exam without it?

In life and in our journey with our faith, it’s the same thing. The only difference is we don’t need to flip the page to get our life on track. We just need to turn our lives to God. The answer to life’s biggest mystery is not to succeed. The answer is to seek God, to know God, and to love God. It doesn’t matter how many times we get the answer wrong. It doesn’t matter how many red marks we have on our tests… because God marks with an eraser. He sets asides our mistakes to use and give us another clean paper to try it again! He also uses us to provide others the answer to their own exam! In other words, He uses us to be the solution!

Let our light be always a guide to someone in need.

Pray for me. Pray for the World.

#BestLentEver – Day 14. Decisions.

“Where do you want to eat?”

…is one of the questions that I always have a hard time deciding. There are just so many options out there that I just can’t miss out on. And when I do finally decide on where to eat, it is mostly based on what I feel.

I feel like telling you that you are useless. You are useless. (I wanted to tell one of my colleagues at work today. Forgive me Father.) Of course, I did not tell him. I called him out subtly, but I did not tell him how I felt. Why? Because it’s wrong to hurt other people.

Most of the time we focus on our feelings so much that we base our decisions on what we feel. We forget that decisions should be based on the answer to the question, “what will make me a better person?” Or if it’s a long term, more difficult decision, “what is the next loving thing to do?”

No. We do not ask those questions, because most of us are impulsive beings. We’re not perfect. We don’t always make the right decisions, but being able to make the right decisions comes with practice of the mind and heart. Mind, by knowing God and heart, by loving God.

Help me to know and love You more.

Pray for me. Pray for the world.

 

#BestLentEver – Day 8. Almighty.

“THY WILL BE DONE.”

Matthew Kelly posed the question today on how do we see or experience God in our lives. It made me think about how I always see Him as the Almighty and Powerful; just as He was, is, and is to come. As Christians, that is one of our basic understanding of who God is–Almighty and Powerful; just as He was portrayed in the Old Testament.

We had LBS (Liturgical Bible Study) Thursday today and as we talked about the Gospel reading for this Sunday, Jesus was portrayed magnificently side by side Moses and Elijah. Jesus’ ultimate “selfie” or rather, image for us Christians has always been His crucifixion. Our discussion tonight had me thinking how Jesus the Almighty, magnificently portrayed by John and Peter, chose to die on the Cross for us! “THY WILL BE DONE” indeed.

Now as I reflect back to Matthew’s question, “How do I see God?” I always try to look back to what Mother Teresa of Calcutta’s favorite line of Jesus, “I thirst.” Jesus’ thirst not only portrays His physical thirst for something to drink, but His thirst for our love for Him.

I thirst for more of You, Jesus.

PFM. PFW.

#BestLentEver – Day 7. Prayer.

“Lord, thank You.”

I admit. I suck at prayer. Well, I don’t suck at it. No one sucks at praying. What I really mean to say is… my life really revolves around being busy by doing nothing at all. I have time! I just choose to have time to do something else. And I don’t really know why.

Don’t judge me… I do pray everyday. But the thing is, my prayers have become repetitive and very robotic at times. “Thank You for the blessings… sorry for being impatient today. Help me do this or that…” It seems that my prayers usually just ends up being mindless requests and petitions. There are times of course, where I would really have a good prayer time… but it’s not constant because my mind is like a squirrel. I’m so distracted it’s frustrating. I think too much at times that I forget I am in prayer. Sometimes I need to force myself into meditation to actually focus my mind on God. I know I need to make more time. I need to sit in actual silence.

Help me feel You and hear You despite the wordly noise.

PFM. PFW.

#BestLentEver – Day 6. Satisfaction.

“What is God trying to tell me today?”

… is the one constant question I ask myself everyday–mostly because I find that most days God is so silent that I can barely hear Him!

I lost my patience today, not because I was unaware… I was completely aware but chose to ignore, to control, to resist. I chose to let my emotions get to me. I find that the underlying cause of my frustrations is also equivalent to the level of my satisfaction–satisfaction in work and relationships; satisfaction in finances and being in control; satisfaction in my overall accomplishment in life.

When I am not satisfied–my emotions tend to get the best of me. When my expectations are not met–I blame it all on God or the people around me! We’re dissatisfied because certain events did not meet our expectations. Why am I always dissatisfied? I probably took the wrong fork.

Help me see Your message through my dissatisfaction.

PFM. PFW.

#BestLentEver – Day 1. RESISTANCE.

Been a while… in fact it’s been a year! As much as I have wanted to blog the past year… resistance just keeps getting in the way.

***Side note: Dynamic Catholic had started this program called #BestLentEver and since I have given up social media for the year (with the exception of WordPress of course), I decided to take part of the discussion… because why not?

Throughout my life, I’ve had many instances of resistance–not just in my day to day activities, but also in my faith… (it even took a lot of power within me to write this blog, typing away on my phone instead of getting cozy in bed… because why not?) I don’t even have an excuse for this because frankly I am really talented at doing nothing at all.

I really like sleep. Sleep is life. That is why my resistance game is so strong! Have you ever felt like your guardian angel pops you out of your bubble only to find yourself blowing up a new and bigger bubble? That is me!

So what is really my lenten resolution besides deciding to fast more? There’s really none but I just hope and pray to keep fighting the resistance within, not just during Lent but in my forever journey with the Lord.

Please pray for me. Pray for the world.