When I’m really frustrated with myself and I can’t seem to find someone to talk to, I run to the Blessed Sacrament. Thankfully, I have a church near me that offers 24/7 adoration chapel. I run to the Blessed Sacrament for clarity and for serenity. Most of the time, I just want to sit there asking God to hug me. I don’t have to talk. I don’t have to say anything. I just sit there in silence in God’s presence. Sometimes I imagine Him patting my back and saying, “It’s going to be all okay. I’m here now.” Isn’t that wonderful?
I have to be honest though, I have not ran to the Blessed Sacrament lately. Partly, because I have never felt the need to, and partly because when I’m feeling a bit down and frustrated with myself I try to occupy myself by doing other things. I have lost the need to be silent or alone. Sometimes you need a little boost to find out what you’re missing out on. I am missing out on myself and I need to realize that what I need is a reminder that God is trying to talk to us through the silence of our hearts. We just need to be willing to listen.
Help me to listen through the silence.